"Hey everyone. It's Rio Shabiro and you're watching The Rio Channel! It has been a while since I posted a new video. I know that I owe you guys the second part of my discussion with my friends about safe intercourses and I am so sorry that I still couldn't make it happen. Things have been really tough for me. We are approaching the new year and...to be honest with you...I don't know if I'm ready for it. For those of you who still don't know, I lost a friend of mine a few weeks ago. He died because he was trying to safe me from an anti-LGBT person. Yes, I was this close to be a victim of the anti-LGBT movement. It's not surprising, right? I kinda expected that since I posted my coming out video. The guy is now in police custody. Even though he is behind bars, he still left me with nothing but a big scar in my heart.

Anyway, I'm not here to talk about the bad experience. I have something else to share with all of you. In the next 72 hours, I'll be leaving to Melbourne to start a new journey of my life. I've been selected for a foundation programme at a university there. Everything has been put in place and I just need to finish with my studies for about five years or so. I know for some people, this might be a shocking news. I know...even I'm a bit surprised myself. Because you know that I've always wanted to go and study in London. But Melbourne, really? Well...I guess fate is as such.

If you are wondering why am I not smiling even though I'm sharing with you a good news about me going to further my studies...it's because I'm saying goodbye to a lot of things before I fly there. One of the things that I'm saying goodbye to is...a relationship that I had with this one guy from school. I know that I've been telling you that I am single before...but...I lied. I was never single. I have always been dating this guy who means a lot to me even when we're no longer together now. I ended our relationship a couple of days ago and...he didn't take it so well. He...blocked me on almost all social media platform. He hasn't replied to my messages or return any of my calls. I guess...he is really that upset.

I can't tell you guys who is this guy. Because he is still in the closet. And...I believe after the break up, he will continue to be in the closet. He might not date other guys as well, I don't know. I just wanna wish him well. I hope he sees this video. I really want him to know that I still care for him. I know that he's angry with me because I ended our relationship over the phone. And I am so sorry for that. I couldn't bear to look you in the eyes and break up with you. That would destroy me. Not that it has not destroyed you.

Babe, you have to understand. We're gonna be in a very long distance relationship if we still continue to date each other. And I don't know whether I can still commit. And I certainly don't want the two of us to suffer. What about you? Are you gonna wait for me until I return? What about me? What about us? What if we can't stop longing for each other's presence? Melbourne is not Singapore. It's definitely not Bangkok or Indonesia or Brunei where we can at least see each other quarterly. I might not return to Malaysia for years. Can we take it? I don't think so.

I am also doing this video because...I want to show everyone that in our relationship, I am the jerk here. I'll let you be the innocent one. Because you are innocent. You did nothing wrong to me so please don't feel like this is your fault. It's not. It's my fault. I'm sorry.

Rio mula menitiskan air mata. Dia menyapu hingus yang keluar. Matanya tidak lagi mampu memandang ke arah kamera.

I'm leaving in the next 72 hours. And I hope to see you one last time before my flight departs. I don't know if you're going to watch this video. I hope you are. Because I really want you to be there at the airport. I really do. Let's end this on a good note. Let's not burn the bridge. Let's continue to be friends. Because I still love you. I still want you in my life.

Kerana tidak dapat menanggung kesedihan lagi, Rio terpaksa menamatkan rakaman videonya itu. Dengan penuh terbeban, dia memuatnaik video tersebut di dalam laman YouTube.

Video itu adalah video terakhirnya sebelum dia terbang ke Melbourne. Walaupun isi kandungan video itu tidak seperti yang diharapkan, Rio terpaksa juga memuatnaiknya. Dia sudah tidak tahu bagaimana lagi harus dia berhubung dengan bekas kekasihnya. Zakwan tidak dapat dihubungi di semua platform komunikasi mereka. Rio tahu Zakwan ada hak untuk berbuat sedemikian. Namun dia tidak mahu hubungan mereka berdua berakhir begitu saja. Dia masih mahu mereka berdua berkawan lagi.

Rio tidak pasti sama ada Zakwan akan muncul di KLIA seperti yang diharapkan atau tidak. Kalau boleh dia mahu mengucapkan selamat tinggal kepada Zakwan dengan cara yang baik. Ada sebab kenapa Rio tiba-tiba mahu menamatkan hubungan mereka. Apa yang berlaku kepada Hakim benar-benar telah mengganggu emosinya. Biarlah dia membawa lara hatinya ke Melbourne tanpa perlu dibebankan lagi dengan perasaan rindu terhadap Zakwan apabila mereka berjauhan nanti.

"He will come. I promise you, I will make sure he comes..." kata Emilya sewaktu dia berjumpa dengan Rio sehari sebelum Rio mula merakam videonya tadi. Emilya datang ke rumah Rio untuk meluahkan kekesalannya atas apa yang telah terjadi kepada Hakim. Emilya telah mengaku bahawa dia pernah cuba bersekongkol dengan Botak untuk mencederakan Rio dan Zakwan.

"I'm so sorry..." itu saja yang mampu diungkapkan oleh Emilya.

Rio tersenyum dan menyentuh bahu rakan baiknya itu. "All is forgiven, Emil. All is forgiven. You're not the only one yang pernah bersekongkol dengan Botak."

"What do you mean?"

"My dad pun pernah contact dengan dia sebelum ni."

Terbuntang bulat anak mata Emilya mendengar perkara yang diberitahu oleh Rio itu. "You're kidding me!"

"I'm not. Hari tu dia confess dekat my mom. Dia menangis-nangis. Dia menyesal sebab hampir rosakkan rumah tangga diorang. And almost got me killed."

"What did you mom say?"

"Of course she's upset. I would be too. Disebabkan orang macam Botaklah, Auntie Liz kena bunuh. My mom tak dapay nak terima kenyataan tu."

"So what's gonna happen to their marriage?"

Rio menjongketkan bahu. "I don't know. And I don't care. Because I'm leaving to Melbourne soon. Diorang pun selama ni bukan bahagia mana. So I don't mind kalau diorang bercerai. It's best for the two of them."

"I'm gonna miss you, Rio." Emilya menerpa ke arah rakan baiknya itu dan mereka berdua saling berpelukan.

"I know. I'm gonna miss you too, Emil."

And I'm gonna miss Zakwan the most, getus hati Rio.