AKU menarik keluar hadiah pemberian Melissa padaku. Nampaknya gadis itu sekali lagi memberikanku hadiah yang agak mahal bagiku. Sehelai kot berjenama ZARA berwarna hitam kelihatan sempurna pada mataku.

Sehelai kertas jatuh di atas ribaku. Dengan serta merta aku mengenali tulisan tangan yang kemas di atas sampul.

Sorry if this letter is a disturbance for you on your way achieving your dreams. I would only want you to spend some of your precious time to read and understand the letter.

When we’ve started chatting thru SMS, since then I was in love with you. When I sent the cards and gifts to you, since then I was in love with you. When we first spoke on phone, since then I was in love with you. And maybe when I lay my eyes on you, I’ll be more in love with you. And now, I just don’t know when did I fell in love with you. But one thing for sure, I’m in love with you for who you, Hadif Aziz.

But, this is what I feel deep inside me. And I know, you never feel more than just a feeling for someone called friend. I know and I am not forcing you. I took the first move coz I’m tired. Tired of keeping all this by myself for almost 3 years.

But, if our hearts are singing the same tune, I’ll be right here witing. But I’m scared, that the patients will only last for 2 months. I would assume after 2 months if there’s no words from you, that we would just remain as friends. A friend that is very close in my heart.

That is all I ever wanted. I love you.

Love;

Melissa firdaus.

Aku melipat kertas A4 itu. Hampir koyak kertas tersebut apabila aku genggam dengan kuat. Lantas, sesuatu melintasi fikiranku. Aku memejamkan mataku erat-erat. Aku menghentakkan kepalaku berulang kali pada kepala kerusi.

Melissa yang memberiku CD itu! Dia yang selama ini menyimpan perasaan padaku! Ya ALLAH! Kau memang bodohlah Dif! Bodoh! Bodoh! Bodoh! Kenapa kau tak boleh nak agak dia yang bagi kau CD tu! Siapa lagi kawan-kawan perempuan kau yang layan kau macam dia layan kau?!

Melissa cintakan aku? Ya ALLAH! Sejak bila? Padahal hubungan kami hanyalah sekadar rakan biasa saja. Dan aku sendiri tidak pernah memikirkan hubungan aku dan dia akan berkekalan meskipun sekadar seorang kawan.

Aku membuang pandang ke luar tingkap Boeing 777. Aku bagaikan melihat Melissa sedang tersenyum sambil melambai-lambai ke arahku. Jemariku menyentuh cermin. Sejuk hatiku melihat seraut wajah yang tersenyum manis itu.

Ahh! Aku harus beri jawapanku padanya. Aku harus berani!