January 2021, my sister said to me that my dad cheated again. My sister got a lot of info. My siblings and I still don't know whether they are married or not but I think yes they are married. It'd been the hardest time in my life. My mom changed 360°. My sister becomes angry every day. I always become the one who is between them because they both are fighting. Sometimes my siblings always said, "u are lucky because..." It makes me feel like a burden. I hear everybody in this house's confession but I feel ashamed when I want to say what my heart says because I know they will say "at least".
I heard a lot about my dad's girlfriend and I become hating my family a lot. I can't take it so I made a decision where I will ask my dad for money RM100/month. I always think why he married 3 women at the same time although he is poor and only makes RM2000/month.
I always say to myself " don't stop studying until u have a job and become rich" because I don't want my future children to live my life. I don't want to see them suffer. Until now I always asked myself a lot of questions about my dad.
In mid-2021, I said to my dad I want to save money to buy myself a phone but he said no, he want to buy me one. Turns out he buy himself an RM4000 phone and gave me a phone he got from U-Mobile for free. I was like why? Why barely spend money on his children but can spend thousands on his girlfriend.