*13 may 2021*

I'm not deserve to any man in this world.
I said i like him,
like her,
I like them...
But then,
deep down in my heart,
I know,
i'll be alone again,
and again.
Because,
i'm nobody.
I think, it will be forever.
Or maybe
It'll just take a long time...
And still,
I'm not deserve to be love,
To be care,
To be listen by anyone...
I'm just nobody.

I'm a miserable ...
And yet,
Now,
I still the same...
Because,
I choose not to change,
I'm more afraid to have hope...
rather than trying so hard,
I'm always a failure.
I know myself better...
I give up much easier
when I'm struggling with mylife...
I'm easier to be broken
rather than to be strong and to fight.

It is always not an easy path.
I cried,
I screamed inside,
I broke the heart,
I weaken my soul,
And yet,
I'm still standing...
With a little hope.
To keep me awake...
To keep me walking... Forward.