I cried myself to sleep last night.
I remember sobbing till I got hiccup
I remember screaming like crazy.

It hurts.
I screamed in my pillow.
It was like chanting,
Cause I repeat it many times.
I was drowning in sorrow.

"God, why me?"
At that vulnerable moment
I was so irrational and stupid.
I ask God for something I have already knew the answer.

But I didn't stop.
I begged Him.
I begged The Almighty.
Please take this pain away
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE !

I curled up myself on bed
Screaming to the top of my lung
Crying like I lost my sanity
And begging for my heart to stop feeling anything.

Now I'm awake at 4:26 in the morning
I went to wash my sticky face
Thanks to the wax results of me crying.

I sit on my bed
Hugging my right knee
My head hurts from crying
My throat hurts from screaming

And I hold my heart
Oh crap !
It hurts.
It still hurts.

Now I have to deal with three instead of one.
Stupid heart.
For unable to become numb.

NurinaZara//TheDeadRose