Friday, 10 mac 2017. Again. I try to contact you. Around 5pm. Still satu tick. Why?¿

But still i try avoid my bad feeling again bcs of my sister birthday masatu.

On the way balik kd, my friend ws 'syu aku nak bagitau kau something'

'Ye apa dia?'

'Tapi kau jangan sedih. Kau kena kuat! Allah tengah uji kau'

'Kau cakap apa ni'

Hati aku Allah je yang tahu masatu.

'Janji tau syu kau kena kuat'

'Apeni'

'Iqra dah takda syu'

WHAT!!!!! I was like cubaan apa Allah tengah bagi aku ni?????

'Kau jangan main main la!'

'Syu aku sendiri terkejut. Takkan aku nk memain dengan benda macam ni'

Oh my God im so sad. Hampir hilang nyawa aku masatu. Moody. Sangat. I lost 2 guys that i really love. My ex and tan sri. Yes now im totally lost. Hidup aku kosong sangat untill now.

Aku hidup sekarang cuma untuk happykan orang but jauh sudut hati aku yes aku kosong.

I cant imagine kau dah takda tan sri. I remembered last every single words that you said 'kau jaga diri eh syu? Tak selamanya aku ada untuk kau. Jangan depends hidup kau dekat orang lain. Just stand by urself. Janji dekat aku dont make ppl around you sad. Just make them happy and i will make sure you will be happy too'

I lost. Aku hilang kau bukan untuk esok but forever. Kalau boleh undur balik masa, aku akan undur masa kau bebetul nk jumpa aku. Masa kau kata 'aku ada something nk bagitau. Penting sangat' God im so speechless.

Waktu tu aku rasa life aku end macam tu je. Fortunately i have diva that always put me first. I have only her.

Rest in peace tan sri. I always remember you. Pray for you. See you when i see you! Jangan nakal nakal. I love you.