NAFAS dihela perlahan. Buat seketika, dia dapat bertenang semula. Amarah yang menguasai hatinya kini beransur-ansur hilang setelah beristighfar tadi.

“Zac, kau okey tak? " soal Afzal Reyhan prihatin. “I'm fine, no need to worry. " balas Zachary perlahan. Dia memandang ke arah taman yang berada dalam hospital tersebut.

“You've told me about it but you never said why. It has something to do with my brother? " soal Reyhan. Zachary akhirnya mengangguk. Dia keluar dari perut kereta diikuti dengan Afzal Reyhan.

“Emilia. "

“Huh? " siapa Emilia? Dia yakin Zachary ada sebut nama perempuan itu tadi namun dia tidak pasti siapa Emila? Teman wanita? Isteri? Adik? Atau kawan Zachary? Dia sendiri tidak pasti.

“She's a doktor here, once. " ujar Zachary. Nadanya jelas kedengaran sedih.

“Apa jadi pada dia? " soal Afzal Reyhan ingin tahu.

“She died... "

Afzal Reyhan tersentak.

“I-I'm sorry, Zac. "

“It's fine. It's a long time story. " balas Zachary. Nadanya masih kedengaran sedih. Seperti menanggung beban yang begitu berat di atas pundaknya.

“Care to share? Only if you want to, " ujar Afzal Reyhan agar tidak kedengaran seperti mendesak.

Zachary senyum nipis.

“Emilia, dia seorang doktor yang berwibawa dan amat serius dalam pekerjaan dia. Dia muda, baik, cantik, bijak. Pendek kata, dia amat terkenal dalam kalangan doktor dan pesakit di sini. "

“Doctor Arman loves her once. Everything she want, he will granted it. Sampaikan bila Emilia bergurau katanya nak naik gaji sebab dia rajin, terus doktor Arman naikkan gaji dia. That's what we called true love. " Zachary tertawa di hujung ayatnya. Namun wajahnya terbias satu perasan. Kecewa!

“Since that day, doctor Arman and Emilia spend most of their time together. Everytime they walked together, they looked like a perfect couple to me. And yet, that's the most terrible thing happened to me, "

“Zac, don't tell me you loved her too? " tembak Afzal Reyhan. Apabila Zachary menganggukkan kepalanya, tahulah dia bahawa cintanya hanya bertepuk sebelah tangan.

“I tried to hide it from her because I'm just practical that time. Both of them looked perfect together that's why I decided to step back. Who I am to be the third wheel in this unbreakable love story? " dia senyum dalam kesakitan.

“Then, what happened to her? " soal Afzal Reyhan ingin tahu.

“Rafael. One day, he came to this hospital to make an check-up. Both of them met and from what I saw, Rafael tried hardly to caught Emilia's attention. But he never succeed. Then, when I was walked to my house, I saw myself Emilia has been captured by Rafael. "

Mata Afzal Reyhan membulat. Ya Allah, apa lagi yang abangnya dah buat ni?

“I decided to helped her but I was too late. Infront of me, I saw he raped Emilia. I still could heard her screamed, her tears, her plead. I-I couldn't do anything that time. I-I was scared that I ran away... " air matanya laju merembes keluar. Dia memegang dadanya untuk mengawal nafasnya yang mula kedengaran tidak teratur.

“I didn't came to the hospital since that day. I-I was scared to faced everyone especially doctor Arman. I-I don't know how to explained what I saw that day. She saw me, plead with her teary eyes, but I didn't do anything instead I ran. She must think I'm a coward person. " dia ketawa lagi di hujung ayat.

“Zac... "

“One day, I braved myself to came here. Neither I knew, that I'm gonna watched something I couldn't forget myself. She ... she commit suicide, "

“Astagfirullahal'adzim. " beristighfar Afzal Reyhan mendengarnya. Bunuh diri? Tidak terfikir dek akal Emilia begitu tekad untuk akhiri hidupnya sendiri.

“Dia gantung diri di pokok ni. Matanya terjojol keluar, lidahnya terjelir, wajahnya biru. It's not something you wanted to watch for second time. I guess she was depressed after what happened to her. I couldn't imagine her life might be after that, "

“Pasti doktor Arman sangat sedih masa tu. " komen Afzal Reyhan. “Indeed. But he didn't do anything about it and it pissed me off saw him do nothing like seek revenge for Emilia. For me, she deserve better. I'm not a muslim back then so I was mad and I couldn't think anything other than killed Rafael. But, somehow doctor Arman could sense my intention and he tries to negotiate with me. "

“Looks like it works. " ujar Afzal Reyhan. Zachary angguk. “Dia kata, tak perlu nak terlalu ikutkan perasaan sampaikan kita ingin balas dendam pada orang yang dah aniaya kita. Katanya, kita sebagai doktor seharusnya menolong orang yang dalam kesakitan, bukannya membuat orang sengsara. Sebagai seorang muslim pula, kita tak boleh terlalu meratapi orang yang telah tiada, ia seolah-olah kita tidak reda dengan pemergian dia sedangkan ajal dan maut itu sebahagian daripada qada' dan qadar Allah. I was too mad that time that I can't figured out what he tried to say. But, right now, I know why he told me that. "

“Kenapa? "

“So I will be calm and let her go. Now I know why he looked calm when Emilia gone, ia sebab dia reda dengan ketentuan Allah biarpun cara dia mati itu salah di sisi agama. " balas Zachary tenang.

“Then, how you convert to Islam? " soal Afzal Reyhan ingin tahu. Dia lebih tertarik untuk mendengar latar belakang pemuda di depannya ini. Kemarahannya pada Aisy Rafael masih ada namun dia cuba untuk bertenang agar tidak membuat sesuatu di luar kawalan.

“Well, I can't lied when I said I hate your religion because of what Rafael did back then. But, doctor Arman change my perspective about you guys. Katanya, jangan salahkan agamanya atas perbuatannya, tapi salahkan dirinya kerana terlalu mengikuti nafsunya. Agama itu mengajar semua orang untuk berbuat baik, tapi perilaku seseorang itu bergantung pada dirinya. " balas Zachary tenang.

“He never forced me to convert, he just said something in general like what every religion taught their people. But somehow, Islam caught me and here I am, being a muslim and I can't say anything other than said I'm proud to be muslim. "

Terus sahaja Afzal Reyhan memeluk Zachary.

“Hidayah tak pernah salah alamat, Zac. Allah telah pilih kau untuk menjadi salah satu dari hamba-Nya. I'm proud of you, my friend. "

Zachary senyum nipis. “Me too, Rey. "